“Forever”

“Forever” Khalilah~Yasmin ©

I refuse to allow myself to miss you forever,
Knowing you and I were supposed to be together. forever,
but you had a different plan
You wanted to be everyone’s man.
Forever.
You didn’t want something real,
Just somethings…someones…some hers to feel,
For real?   Forever?
Never!
Love had me blinded, and I thought I could change you.
thought your love would kick in, and allow it to make you, love me…
Forever…  But never,
I realized is your plan to love me.
You’d rather get high, get drunk, and find a new me…
You want me to love you, and just want to DO me?
Forever?
Knowing you and I were supposed to be together.

I wanted your children, to grow in my body,
but you’d rather waste sperm on a thousand of bodies..
Forever.

As much as I want to hate you, I cannot…because I’ve loved you,
Forever,
Since I first saw you, my heart attached itself to you, and demanded we be Together…
You were clever, …
You made us all think we were special and unique…
then one day, you stopped hearing me speak.
The kisses ended, and you just pretended,
I thought I was the one you loved and befriended,
Forever, but Never…

God warned me to walk away from your charm,
but I said “I got this, he won’t do me no harm”.
Now I’m on my knees praying to remove you from my heart,
asking God for forgiveness,
my foolishness…has torn me apart.

Having nightmares of you, each night, as your Mask is revealed,
With some of the truths…a part of me was killed.  Forever.
I refuse from now on, to miss you forever..
I never, want us to be together. Ever.

2 comments on ““Forever”

  1. “I refuse from now on, to miss you forever..
    I never, want us to be together. Ever. ”

    Now, that, I can relate to.

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