“Dark Light”

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“Dark -Light” © Khalilah Yasmin 2008

Can somebody help me,
out of the darkness,
I found while I was looking for the light,
It follows me, into sunshine,
and wants me to die.
I run but find you~
there,
in every empty memory
pretending like you care…
It’s not fair,…
The Darkness has a shadow over my soul,
Glowing darker as I grow old…  Then I see you. and..

I blame you, it’s your fault,
because you gave me life,
with life, you gave darkness
and you shut out all the lights.

I blame you it’s your fault,

Why did you give me life…
what did you sacrifice…?
I blame you, it’s your fault

You hate me, …cause love if present
it wouldn’t allow you to make me grieve,
I wipe my blood and tears upon your sleeve.
I blame you it’s your fault.

Can somebody see me,
I’m drowning in an ocean, that has no ground,
Swimming, calling, but my screams they have no sound..
Kicking, Screaming, with No One around.
And then I see you, and you watch me,
I sink deeper, and you let me,
fuck you and forget me.

I blame you, it’s your fault,
because you gave me life,
with life, you gave darkness
and you shut out all the lights.

I blame you it’s your fault,

Why did you give me life…
what did you sacrifice…?
I blame you, it’s your fault
You hate me, …cause love if present
it wouldn’t allow you to make me grieve,
I wipe my blood and tears upon your sleeve.
I blame you it’s your fault.

Can somebody hear me,
I’m expression in a world that speaks monotone,
Alone while I watch you with your love to hold,
You dance in the heated sun, watching me freezing cold.
Innocent I was, until knowing who you were,
the desert is numbing my soul, as I watch you dance with her.
The child you loved, while I needed you most,
it’s too late, cause to me now you’re a ghost.
You don’t hear me….  You’ll never be near me…

I no longer care what you think,
drowning deeper as I sink,
if you would have put your DICK away,
maybe you and I wouldn’t have ended up this way..

I’ve no more to say…  so with you now I trade my place

I blame you, it’s your fault,
because you gave me life,
with life, you gave darkness
and you shut out all the lights.

I blame you it’s your fault,

It’s fucked up, that sperm was your only sacrifice,
you’re the darkness, and I AM the light.

And I survived.

2 comments on ““Dark Light”

  1. okay, so, the feeling in this poem is brillianly painful. i mean, you really expressed it well. i feel you. i can’t relate, really, but i feel you.

    this poem has a rhyme pattern and meter that is a bit less organized than some of your other poems, and it makes sense to do that with this kind of poem. further, the repetition is excellent. it hits and drives home the feeling. summarily, the style matches the content. great poem, Khalilah.

  2. This is actually alternative song I submitted to ASCAP… SO that’s why it seems a bit disorganized.

    I’m glad you enjoyed it.

    I wrote this on Thanksgiving day…

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