KHALILAH YASMIN©

April 28, 2009

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IS it written?

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“Is it Written”?
—-Khalilah Yasmin

FOR EVERY CAUSE THERE’S AN EFFECT…

FOR EVERY ACTION A REACTION….

DO YOU BELIEVE IN THE LAW OF ATTRACTION?

I’m one whom reads a lot of books, and without reading, since I was a child, I have had this sixth sense if you will.  I’ve always known what I was going to be.  And saw my life, before it saw me.  But I will come back to that.  Months ago, I was sitting with a platonic friend and having breakfast.  He said to me, “Do you realize that from the day we met, both of our lives were changed?” He continued, “you could be anywhere else right now, but you chose to spend your time with me. And because you spent your time with me instead of your other plans, your future is changed”. I shrugged him off, and let him explain.

He explained, “Every person we meet, has a hand in our future if we make contact with them”.  Every one we pass, every hand we shake, conversation that is had, word we read, shapes the Universe surrounding us.  There are decisions that are made, due to “said person” being in your life, that say, you wouldn’t have made without their “seemingly” MINOR influence.

I’m about to get philosophical on you for a moment if you let me.  The future is subject to change….  Your life could already be written.  But what if, you turn left when you were supposed to go right?  And what if it was ONE person’s phone call that prevented you from taking that “flight”?  What if you were late, because of something, and being late, for that event, job, or meeting, caused your whole life to be changed….?  You could have met with someone that you wouldn’t have met otherwise, that changed your life forever…    which ties us all together.  We all are effecting each other, silently, whether we realize it or not.  Even those we don’t talk to, or make connection with.  We are effected.   I think it’s a beautiful thing.  But in some ways it can be dangerous.

Picture this…  Imagine, you’re a young business man, about to get married, and you have a wonderful fiance’.  You’re excited to marry this woman.  You’re on a business trip.  The pilot; a man you do not know, is ill today due to his child bringing home the flu…    The pilot is late.  Your flight is delayed, causing you to take another flight, and sit next to another business woman, whom has so much in common with you….  more so that said fiance’.  Instant attraction, chemistry….     You find out this woman is someone from your childhood.

Your left shoulder tells you, “No…you’re happy at home”…  Your right shoulder tells you, “But why is it even crossing my mind to keep in touch with this woman I’m attracted to?”.   And that meeting alone, whether you proceed or not, changed your life because YOU THOUGHT ABOUT IT.  This situation… all due to a pilot being late for his shift, shifted everyone’s future.  And now, many lives are changed…  And the husband to be, is now unsure of his love for his wife.  And depending on his and her decisions, this woman COULD end up being the one….

I’ve learned to be happy for every situation in my life.  Even the heart ache, and trials, for they made me who I am.  Every person I’ve connected with and shared conversation or smile with, contributed to me in some way.  I’ve avoided tragedy and dangerous events due to something that seemed detrimental at the time….

I once avoided a car accident, because my car wouldn’t start….  leading it to cause on fire while I was driving it years ago.  Had it not been for the people that were put in my path that day, to see the flames coming from my engine, I may not be here.   Had it not been for the neighbors I had, while living in an abusive marriage, I may not be here.   I can go on….

So, everyone you know, every number in your phone.  Every person on your job, has a assignment somehow to you.  It’s not a coincidence.   Your future is subject to change depending on everyone around you.

You could be the best dancer in the world, and have a friend with a drinking problem that you’re unaware of, that leads you to getting in a horrible accident that leads to “you no longer being able to perform”.  Domino effect.

So if someone chooses to spend “time” with you, or on you.  Respect and appreciate that “time”.  Time is not returned to us….  and because of that time spent, you and they are forever changed.

Don’t take anything or anyone for granted.  We all are very important to each other.  It is written.

“Affair”

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“Affair” Written By Khalilah Yasmin © 2009

It only takes your voice;
to succumb me to being immensely aroused,
An ocean of emotion;
as if being kissed by millions of mouths.
It only takes your words;
whether spoken or written,
to make it unashamed and obvious
that I’m erotically smitten.

May I in every way;
place myself upon your lips,
I intend to conquer your waves
and soak all of your ships.
May I visit your “peninsula”; —
and make you my secret vacation,
you’re not my peer
so I won’t pressure or tempt you with persuasion.

It only takes one word;
and I’ll wait for your last chance to reply,
Why walk with her briefly
when with me you can fly?

May I share me with you;
as I throb your every vein,
I’d rather you be here with me,
when I CALL OUT YOUR NAME!~

April 25, 2009

“Lezbehonest”

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“Lezbehonest”
Written By Khalilah-Yasmin  ©2009

I watch you from afar on many occasion,
though you may not realize your words persuasion,
to my curiosity’s invasion, because I think you’re amazing,
I often find myself gazing, even if it is wrong,
I see lyrics in your eyes, and they write me a song,
that I sing, when I hear your voice in passing,
wondering if I’m the only one whom envisions
the two of our bodies clasping….

Gasping…for air, because I don’t think we’ll  pace,
ourselves with the chemistry, the fire, the flare…
But it’s fair, that I be honest, whether anyone else approves,
I’m in awe with each curve of femininity as I watch you move.

For when you move, your body has a rhythm that only you can create,
Each meticulous shape, paralleling my awe with a need for heartbreak….
Because I don’t think you’ll take, this invitation, of femininity combined,
as you speak with your heart and I see through your mind.
As my heart beats and I feel the pulse through my being,
as you come into view, with your vibe, before I am seeing.

I watch you from afar on many occasion,
though you may not realize your words persuasion,
to my curiosity’s invasion, because I think you’re amazing.

While I recite I am intently gazing,
admitting…

I see lyrics in your eyes, this song to you I compose,
Lezbehonest for a moment as I indecently propose…

April 11, 2009

“Had”

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“HAD” © 2009 K.Yasmin  (khalilahyasmin.com)

When what you have becomes what you had,
when my smiles Become the reason your ass is sad.

when you told me I wasn’t enough, and I gave you my all,
when you saw me flying you told me you’d rather me fall.
when I changed my life to mold your desire,
you brought a match and set mine to fire.
when you were a star to me before your narcissi Fame
when I became blind yet I saw that you’d changed

when the groupies came, ….when the spotlight was on,
I tried to stand beside you, but pushed behind you, till gone.

when my tears spoke what my mouth could not,
when my heart broke, I rathered it be shot.

When your number one fan, becomes the last on your list,
I was the first one in line, for your ass to be kissed.
but I wanted you minus the clothes, the flash, and bull shit…
Minus the cars, the wheels and the tricks…
tricks, and stunts, road trips and full blunts,
I was a freak for you, but you’d rather those sluts.

When I was myself, and you were an imposter,
You were my only, and I was lost on your roster.

when I lay down at night, and I see your face,
My dream is a nightmare, no saving grace.

For you had a taste, of what love really was,
but you wanted emptiness, you didn’t want love.
when you lie, you’re a con, and the whole world believes,
when the truth comes to light, it will be you that’s deceived.

I’m moving on, don’t call me, your voice makes me mad,
when what you have becomes what you had…

When you’re no longer able to perform the stunts and the tricks,
when no longer is anyone swinging from your dick
when you become you, minus the flash and bull shit…
when no one is in line for your ass to be kissed
when you wake up and you remember how you treated me and that makes you sad…..

when what you have is nothing like what you once had…..

“Unspoken Attraction”

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“Unspoken Attraction” ©KhalilahYasmin.com

As you looked into my eyes the very first time,
it’s as if you knew my thoughts, and were reading my mind.

My mind, hidden behind, my smile, lost inside of my words,
you stared into my spirit and left my soul stirred…

Stirred, I was by a stranger with depth,
wanting him in me deeper, without having sex.

Sex, I could only imagine, would intrigue me further,
Shakespeare called it death, but I believe me you’d murder.

Murder, of all my past vices before you had came,
wanting to grasp your hard MIND, and call out your name.

Name, for when you said mine, my knees became weak,
intrigued and in trance to just hear you speak.

Speak, to me slowly the way only you can….
lead me down your tunnel just hold my hand.

Hand, me your eyes, your spirit, I’m not after your heart,
I want your “soul windows”… to see what you saw in me at first start.

Start, now, life’s short, I may not finish,  and may crave another round….
I’m speaking to you clearly though my mouth makes no sound

Sound, something I’m looking forward to feeling,
the bass of your body, the treble, of you stealing…
My body, my mind, and all I offer for this night to take…
Take me to a place I’ve never been and want to find.
Take me now, beautiful stranger, before I change my mind.

My MIND, hidden behind, my smile, lost inside of my words,
you stared into my spirit and left my soul stirred…

April 2, 2009

“Hear ME, HERE me”

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“Hear ME, HERE me”© 2009 Khalilah-Yasmin

I’m dealing with cards that someone else gave me,
searching for an answer, and there’s nothing to save me..
I fall,
I fall,
I reach for a hand that’s not there…
There’s nowhere to turn to, my life seems so unfair..
I’ve forgotten how to cry because HE told me I cried too much,
but didn’t realize I cried as well, when he leaned in to touch.
Fuck, Looking in my closets at the demons I pretend to not see,
I ignore them all day, yet I know they see me.

I’m saving a LIFE, that someone else gave me,
I’m a torn wild mess, with nothing to tame me.
But solstice and silence where my heart beats so loud,
I can hear it beat through my body through the drums of a crowd.
I’m strong but I’m weak, I shut up while I speak,
Holding in what you pushed away, when you hurt me that day…

Watching my world tear down before me,
you want me to smile because you pretend to adore me,
YOU BORE ME.
There’s more to me, that you ever bothered to find,
I gave you my most prized, my high, I gave you my mind.

I’m fighting a war that someone else gave me,
because I’m still alive, you point and you blame me.
I’m ashamed see, because I don’t want to feel so strong,
how can someone be so hurt for so long?

How is everyone even down to even her kin,
the rejection she feels in a heart born in sin.

I fall,

I fall,
reaching for a hand that’s not there
I want to run, but to another emptiness?  WHERE?

Living in a world, where we fend for ourselves,
I fall
I fall,
born alone, and still by myself.

Seeing a reflection of peace but a heart that is weary,
I’m crying inside, and no one can hear me.

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